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Being Active – My Path | My Life | Thoughts | Music + My Head

#66 of 101 | i suck + i will get better | i can’t quit

( Goal is 220 pounds on my 101 Things To Do in 1001 days. )

this is one of those rambling posts that happen late at night with no punctuation or capitals.

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enough is enough.  i’ve only played ball once last year.  very disappointed in myself.  many days i think about doing something to get into better shape.  many days i do nothing.

that is changing.  being active is now the rule for my health and well being.  not happy with where the last 12 months has taken me.

this has to stop.  i’m not happy with myself.  i’m not happy with how i look and feel.  i don’t want to be fat anymore.    i tried before and fell off the bandwagon.

i want to be strong.

i want to be healthy.

i want to eat more clean foods.  no more fucking pizza late at night when i’m alone.

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i want to be a good role model for my kids.

i want to be alive to see them grow up.

i want to be confident in the clothes i wear.

i want more upper body strength.

i want to loose weight around my mid section.

tennis, walking to work, biking to work, swimming, hoops, running, yoga and watching what i put into my pie hole will be the key.

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the last woman i was with was stunning.  absolutely fucking beautiful and i was so lucky to spend time with her.  i need to be healthy and fit for me but sometimes we all want to feel confident in our skin and want to look good for the others we spend intimate moments with.  when i was with her nothing in the world mattered.  we had the craziest weekends together.  the craziest sex.   i want to be better and going in the right direction for whoever is in my life.  i want to do i for them… and i want to do it for me.

time to get serious and be on the record and accountable to me.  i wish i really pushed myself one year ago at this time.  can’t go back.  only can work on the “today” and nothing else.  forward progress will happen if you focus on the “today”

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i need to improve my conditioning.

i need to improve my footwork.

i need to improve my handles.

i need to push myself.

i will be 51 years old in April of 2022 and i’m not going to look like i’m in high school weighing a buck sixty with size 34 jeans.  i’m not going to be a great basketball player either… but i want to be able to run and defend and jump and attack.

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i will post one of those embarrassing at the moment full body in a mirror selfies in 1 year of the before and after.

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i’m jealous of runners.  purely jealous.  i will try and catch you.

i will post my measurements down below.

my focus: yoga, basketball, running, tennis, swimming and weights.

That will change!

Embarrasing as it is… if I don’t type it… it won’t give me the motivation.

I want to be attractive to someone.  I will be.

All my posts regarding my journey about weight loss can will be found here

Streetball + Hoops + Old Love = Needs Rekindling

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horrible summer with not getting out and being active.  with the summer coming to a close… i miss my passion.  i miss the courts.  the courts are calming and it’s my church.  nobody has any problems when they play.  they can’t see outside the lines.  only the things happening inside the lines matter.  you can’t hear the world.  you only hear the game.

fall is upon us.  the evening dew will kill the outdoor game at Simcoe.  the welly will have runs this fall and into the frost and into the snow we will go.

i want the love back.

i will get it.

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rest in peace kirk.

This Girl Can | My Daughter Can | You Should Also

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My daughter is active.  She is playing Volleyball this winter.  Last season… she was in advanced trampoline.  She enjoys skateboarding, basketball, soccer, track & field, cross country.  She wanted rollerblades for Christmas this year and we went out and bought some for her downtown.  She wants to ice skate more.  She plays road hockey with her little Brother.  She said she would like to play hockey.  She wants to kick my ass in Tennis and at anything.  She wants to race me and beat me all the time.  She wants to wrestle with me and pin me down and make me say “uncle”   She wants to learn snowboarding, tennis and any other sport out there.

I honestly don’t care what she plays.  I just want her to be happy… to always be open to meeting new people and enjoy life.  Playing individual sports and team sports is always a good thing.  For one… it’s the people you meet and the memories.  How everyone is working for a common goal in a team sport.

I just love this campaign below.  It also goes for me.  No matter what you do… jsdoit and get out there.  We all have barriers and this campaign is pretty cool.  I hope they keep it up and keep going with it.  We all come in different shapes and sizes.  The key is just getting out and pushing yourself and working as hard as you can and also having a blast with your mates.

This Girl Can celebrates the women who are doing their thing no matter how they do it, how they look or even how sweaty they get. They’re here to inspire us to wiggle, jiggle, move and prove that judgement is a barrier that can be overcome.

In 1995 this ad was powerful to me.  I didn’t have kids at the time.  I was in a 6 year relationship with a woman that I wanted to marry and I wanted kids shortly.  I wanted them to grow up so we could play sports together.  Loved this ad below:

Then this commercial came out.

Chantal… go kick the worlds ass