#66 of 101 | i suck + i will get better | i can’t quit

( Goal is 220 pounds on my 101 Things To Do in 1001 days. )

this is one of those rambling posts that happen late at night with no punctuation or capitals.

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enough is enough.  i’ve only played ball once last year.  very disappointed in myself.  many days i think about doing something to get into better shape.  many days i do nothing.

that is changing.  being active is now the rule for my health and well being.  not happy with where the last 12 months has taken me.

this has to stop.  i’m not happy with myself.  i’m not happy with how i look and feel.  i don’t want to be fat anymore.    i tried before and fell off the bandwagon.

i want to be strong.

i want to be healthy.

i want to eat more clean foods.  no more fucking pizza late at night when i’m alone.

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i want to be a good role model for my kids.

i want to be alive to see them grow up.

i want to be confident in the clothes i wear.

i want more upper body strength.

i want to loose weight around my mid section.

tennis, walking to work, biking to work, swimming, hoops, running, yoga and watching what i put into my pie hole will be the key.

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the last woman i was with was stunning.  absolutely fucking beautiful and i was so lucky to spend time with her.  i need to be healthy and fit for me but sometimes we all want to feel confident in our skin and want to look good for the others we spend intimate moments with.  when i was with her nothing in the world mattered.  we had the craziest weekends together.  the craziest sex.   i want to be better and going in the right direction for whoever is in my life.  i want to do i for them… and i want to do it for me.

time to get serious and be on the record and accountable to me.  i wish i really pushed myself one year ago at this time.  can’t go back.  only can work on the “today” and nothing else.  forward progress will happen if you focus on the “today”

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i need to improve my conditioning.

i need to improve my footwork.

i need to improve my handles.

i need to push myself.

i will be 51 years old in April of 2022 and i’m not going to look like i’m in high school weighing a buck sixty with size 34 jeans.  i’m not going to be a great basketball player either… but i want to be able to run and defend and jump and attack.

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i will post one of those embarrassing at the moment full body in a mirror selfies in 1 year of the before and after.

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i’m jealous of runners.  purely jealous.  i will try and catch you.

i will post my measurements down below.

my focus: yoga, basketball, running, tennis, swimming and weights.

That will change!

Embarrasing as it is… if I don’t type it… it won’t give me the motivation.

I want to be attractive to someone.  I will be.

All my posts regarding my journey about weight loss can will be found here

Little Baller

Chantal decided to play ball in her last year.  She didn’t play last year and did Soccer and Volleyball.  They didn’t have a good team since being at DOC and this year they hit a sweet flow and got stronger and stronger as the year went along.  They won gold at a tourney as the season was coming to the crunch.  In LOSSA they won gold and they represented the region at OFSSA in London, Ontario.

I was super excited and pulled out the old songs mixed in with what they listen to and made a little mixtape.  I was super nervous for OFSSA since there would be some super strong teams.  I was at work and following on Twitter and YouTube which they had some difficulty streaming the games.

 

First game they came out and won 67-62 in a game that they took the lead by 10ish points and the other team chipped in and made it close at the end.  The next day they won again and they didn’t play that good and it was basically a even game at the end of each quarter.

 

 

In the third game which I could watch on YouTube at work… they got smoked by Mother Theresa who won OFSSA the year before.  The press killed them…. but what a great memory going to OFSSA to compete at a chance to go far into the Tourney.  Smiley is below with Chantal who was born on the same night at the same hospital.  I’m happy that they played together.  They had a banquet to start of the tourney and the two shots are from the festivities.

List3 | #79 of 101 Things To Do In 1001 Days | Jump + Hang On A Basketball Hoop

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The summer after Grade 11… I was in shape.  I weighted a buck sixty four and size 34 jeans and in my desert boots… I could stand under the basket on the first day of high school and turn and jump and hang on the rim with one hand.  That summer at the courts… I could remember jumping and hanging on with two hands.  Just enough fingertips to hang on.

I’m 45 and I want to do that again.

It honestly sounds impossible.  With my goal to a healthy lifestyle the weight will come off and I will focus on achieving this goal.

Last night at the courts… I jumped and could touch the bottom of the backboard.  Every time I play I will focus time on jumping and jumping and see if I can get a little higher up the backboard over time.  I can also track and measure this at the YMCA this winter.

I will update this post and measure off the ground on how high I’m jumping.

#87 of 101 Things | Hit 33 Free Throws Straight

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Above is me shooting with Chantal watching at Raptorball.  She was so cute.

My goal is to hit 33 free throws in a row.  Which sounds impossible.  Anyways… I will try.

I can’t imagine the day when I’m at 26 in a row.  The pressure will kill me.  LOL

You can find my full list of my 101 things to do in a 1001 days in the pull down menu above under “pages”

The Baller | She Wishes She Was Taller

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so nice to be able to be off work when she is playing in a tourney.  i got to watch 3 games as the bolts played 3 other schools and lost each game.  the other teams had some players that were very skilled for her grade level.  her pg was really good at fishing into the lane where she would turn it over.

boo got some buckets and i can’t wait for her to go to D’OC and have a real coach and have real practices and play more games than just one tourney for the season and play 3 games.

I remember when she was much smaller for the Bolts and I was lucky to be able to catch a game where she took it to the rack below:

 

Two On Two | Fall Outdoor Hoops

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Ball season outside is coming to a close.  Last night the dew on the court made it slippery by around 7:30.  Played for a hour.  When I got there… we played some two on two.  I wish I was playing indoors in a league.  With work and my schedule being all over the place… I can’t join a men’s league.  Hopefully I can find some good runs at the YMCA or over at Flemming at the Rec Ctr.

Two on Two | Simcoe & Bethune Courts in Peterborough Ontario from Speed on Vimeo.