( Goal is 220 pounds on my 101 Things To Do in 1001 days.  It’s #57)

this is one of those rambling posts that happen late at night with no punctuation or capitals.

enough is enough.  i’ve only played ball once last year.  very disappointed in myself.  many days i think about doing something to get into better shape.  many days i do nothing.

that is changing.  being active is now the rule for my health and well being.  not happy with where the last 12 months has taken me.

this has to stop.  i’m not happy with myself.  i’m not happy with how i look and feel.  i don’t want to be fat anymore.    i tried before and fell off the bandwagon.

i want to be strong.

i want to be healthy.

i want to eat more clean foods.  no more fucking pizza late at night when i’m alone.

i want to be a good role model for my kids.

i want to be alive to see them grow up.

i want to be confident in the clothes i wear.

i want more upper body strength.

i want to loose weight around my mid section.

tennis, walking to work, biking to work, swimming, hoops, running, yoga and watching what i put into my pie hole will be the key.

the last woman i was with was stunning.  absolutely fucking beautiful and i was so lucky to spend time with her.  i need to be healthy and fit for me but sometimes we all want to feel confident in our skin and want to look good for the others we spend intimate moments with.  when i was with her nothing in the world mattered.  we had the craziest weekends together.  the craziest sex.   i want to be better and going in the right direction for whoever is in my life.  i want to do i for them… and i want to do it for me.

time to get serious and be on the record and accountable to me.  i wish i really pushed myself one year ago at this time.  can’t go back.  only can work on the “today” and nothing else.  forward progress will happen if you focus on the “today”

i need to improve my conditioning.

i need to improve my footwork.

i need to improve my handles.

i need to push myself.

i will be 46 years old in April of 2017 and i’m not going to look like i’m in high school weighing a buck sixty with size 34 jeans.  i’m not going to be a great basketball player either… but i want to be able to run and defend and jump and attack.

i will post one of those embarrassing at the moment full body in a mirror selfies in 1 year of the before and after.

i’m jealous of runners.  purely jealous.  i will try and catch you.

i will post my measurements down below.

my focus: yoga, basketball, running, tennis, swimming and weights.

I’ve signed up for Fit4Less and I need to be committed to a better eating plan.

Today I weigh 268 pounds and I’m 6’1″ male that is 45 years old and 46 in April 2017.

That will change!